You're never mine

...when i first met you i thought "what a fool"

...when i started to know you i began to find you cool

...when we became closer i started to care

...when we became lovers i couldnt imagine life without you here

...when we broke up you broke my heart

...when we tried again I saw it as a new start

...when you broke my heart for the second time

I realized you never were mine

and now im just lying here

trying to heal my broken heart and stop my tears...

Learnings

things i learned diz days...and im serious..

1. Learn how to save money and not to splurge too much on nonsense things..

2. Forgiveness takes time (for me)

3. I still can't make someone love me the way i wanted to.. geessh..if the person is not into you then don't force it.

4. Partying is the best way to forget the things u want to forget

5.Smoking is still the best than drinking (for me)

tell me

A LINE FROM A SONG...
"...How am i supposed to leave you when my heart tells me to keep you how can you ask me to let you go can't you see i'm slowly dyin' but i'm gonna keep on tryin' please don't ask of me to let you go.."

Princess for a day

wohooo it was my first time to join Santacruzan in our subdivision and it was fun hehe although my feet were tired after.. the bad thing is that we dont have escort haha will it still be considered a santacruzan? hehe but anyways i was so shy at first coz my neighbors who are guys tease me when they saw me walking in the procession but good thing they all have positive comments haha (if not il "upak" dem ) haha my sis was the "queen elena" and she look so good too (sme as me ;p)...(more of my pics on my multiply account..)

Quote 5

".. after partying wd ur fwns,

after puffin cigarz,

after drinking session wd ur fwns,

after reconcl8ng wd ur ex,

after the i love u's u gave ur ader girls..

i hope by the end of the day its still me ur gna be looking for..."

Quote 4

"I did it all, all for you

Hoping you would see

Your eyes are dull

Your hands are clenched

Are we ready?.."

Staying home...

...Staying home wasnt really bad after all (as what i expect)... ive been grounded foh days already..dt includes "no-going-out" and all i have to do is help mah mom clean the house because we will have visitors next week.. i thought my weekend would be boring but its not..Saturday well i can i say I got bummed a little...i just slept and eat, eat and eat....and oh i made reflections.. swear!... coz ive been acting weird or some kinda paranoid bout diz person and being alone in the room juz thinking what to do help a lot..in the evening of saturday i kept looking on the clock and telling mah siz "hey by diz tym 9pm me and mah fwns are alrdy in paseo" but damn! im stuck at hme.. so i drooled mah self in watching tv...and slept. Sunday came and mah day just went great. i watched Spiderman with mah aunt and sizzy.. we didnt feel like strolling in the mall so we just went home. and i was so happy that mah favorite 1 yr old cuz was there he went up to me and make "lambing" aw gushy.. he simply makes mah day.. he was so funny as he was making "papansin" to everyone in the house... in the evening i went with mah sizzy at the basketball court to cheer for our guy friends who played. and geeesh it was actually mah first time again to go to the b.court. and see them (my guy fwns)... they probably miss me hehe staying at home in weekends had been a little bit new for me.. coz i always go out.. but mind you staying at home during weekends can be fun too...

Mother Love

...When you were 15, your mom came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked. When you were 16, she taught you how to drive her car. You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.When you were 17, she was expecting an important call. You thanked her by being on the phone all night.When you were 18, she cried at your highschool graduation. You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags.You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you. You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her. You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.And then, one day, she quietly died.And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART.

Quote 3

"...So what if i like black?

it doesn't make me a

bad person..."

Grounded

...grrr im so grounded.. gawd il be stuck in the hauz foh lyk hmmm 1 week or so! wts d reason why im grounded?!.. ok.. last sat april 28 i went home late.. hmm awound 12mn hehe and it made mah mom so angry wd me.. dts it huhu sad noh? waaaahhhh il mizz mah hang out place..huhu

Quote 2

"...When i do good no
one remembers
but when i do bad
nobody forgets..."

Quote 1

"...the sad situation is not the discovery that your prince commited to someone else.what's truly pathetic is how you try to snatch the princess' role for your self, when really, YOU'RE JUST THE WITCH WHO GETS IN THE WAY..."